spirit Vs. flesh

As I was doing a bible study on the fruits of the Flesh and the Fruits of the Spirit, it occurred to me that in myself I am unable to obtain the Fruits of the Spirit…

I had always thought that the Holy Spirit gave me the fruits.  This is true in a sense, but I will not obtain those fruits just by the Lord waving his hand or speaking it forth.  It is work to obtain these fruits.  I have found that I must stay vigilant/alert.  I must look at my motives, feelings, thoughts.   I have to be willing to lay down my old self also known as the flesh.

The job of the Holy Spirit is to ENABLE us, or help us stay strong in making these correct or Christ like choices.  We learn what these Christ like choices are by reading the word and through the Holy Spirits teaching (which will always align with the word of God).

The Holy Spirit is the one who reveals ALL truth.  We don’t come to the saving grace of the Lord by our own, no, the Holy Spirit has to be present revealing this truth to us.  If the Holy Spirit is not present we can, and do, say the sinners prayer.  We can get it intellectually on our own.  But there is not a true conversion if the Holy Spirit isn’t present.

I couldn’t understand why I would see people, myself included, giving our lives to God but nothing changed….I don’t know how many times I gave my life to God but would walk out with not one change.  I would try my hardest to be “good”, but nothing changed I always failed.

One day the Holy Spirit was truly present.  He revealed the Truth to me.  Not my truth, or the worlds truth.  It wasn’t anything I did that brought me to the saving grace of Jesus Christ.  It was the Holy Spirit.

I believe that this is a hurdle that many Christians have when walking with the Lord.  We always try in ourselves.  In our own strength, in our own intellect.  We try to manipulate circumstances because we believe its what the Lord wants.  We lean on our own understanding.  We look through the eyes of the flesh.  We think with the mind of the flesh.

A pastor told me one time, “We walk in the flesh about 80% of the time and walk in spirit 20% of the time.  I would agree that is what many Christians do…But this is not what the word of God tells us to do.  I do not believe that walking in the spirit is some mystical thing.  It is very simple, Its about your choices.  Will you choose the narrow road that leads to life or will you choose the wide road that leads to destruction?

Walking in the flesh will always point to yourself:

Galatians 5:19 The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20 idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Walking in the spirit will always point to God.

Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.





Personal communion


I have been a true Christian for about 4 or 5 years now. I didn’t watch the news, I didn’t search the web to look for direction, others opinions or thoughts. In all things that had pertained to my walk as a Christian, my walk with God, it was purely him and I. I actually didn’t even study the word at first.

I knew things that others had told me as a child and I knew about small stuff in the bible, but I didn’t know anything of End times, the functions of the spirit, and so forth. All I knew is God loved me and he sent his son to die on the cross for me and the world. I knew I had to ask God into my heart. I knew the basics. After becoming a true Christian I learned as God had taught me. He and I would spend so much time together. He would drop truth in my heart through the Holy Spirit ministering to me and through dreams and visions. After about a year of my walk with God, I started to pick up the bible and read things here and there. Much of what I read confirmed what the Holy Spirit had been teaching me. It was truly a beautiful time. I was completely full. I didn’t have to work on my relationship with God, it’s as if it just came naturally. All the fruits of the spirit were present in me, Gods gifts were present in me.   It wasn’t something I had to ask for or work at it was just there. All this carried on until about a year ago, maybe a little longer. Time slips by so fast anymore…

It all started with the Alien Demonic dream. It was so farfetched in my mind that I didn’t know what to make of it. This dream went against much of what I believed. When I had this dream I went to God for his direction. He gave me insight and he gave me a word. But I still didn’t have the understanding of all the other stuff in this dream. So I began to look on the web and read books. I wanted to see if there were other Christians out there that had a similar dream, I wanted to see if there were Christian teachings on Alien Demons, I wanted to study what the one eye meant, the star, the colors, the swords. I didn’t stop there either. I began to study other “Christian” topics such as the end times (this category has so many different topics). I learned that there were current prophets and teachers and began listening to many different people. I began to fill up on all types of Christian stuff. I still gave my time to God in the mornings. I still gave him time in the evening’s right before bed. I also gave him time during the day by studying and reading, gaining “Christian knowledge”. So the majority of my day was still dedicated to God. It seemed the more head knowledge I had, the more I wanted.

During this period I became more reliant on my own understanding and less reliant on Gods teaching through the Holy Spirit. Less reliant on God in general. I did not turn away from him, but I wasn’t dependent on him as I once was. God didn’t turn away from me either. He was constant on his warnings, I was just too blind to see. I continued to hear the Holy Spirit but not as frequent. The fruits of the spirit were still there but not as strong. The gifts that God has given me are still there but put on hold. I believe it was put on hold by myself by limiting God in my life. I was striving to be a Christian. It became difficult to be a Christian. The naturality was gone, the simplicity was gone. The load has become heavy…

During this time God spoke to me. God said, “Do not seek confirmation from others. Few are called to speak for me. Few know my heart. Few know my plans. Seek me, seek the Holy Spirit for confirmation. I am using you for great plans. When you hear me, speak it forth. No matter if it goes against the mainstream. For you hear me clearly. Stop doubting, it is time.” I am not professing to be an appointed Prophet. Not at all! As Gods true children we ALL have the ability to hear God. It tells us in the word that God will send us the Holy Spirit through Jesus. The Holy Spirit is, a comforter, a teacher, and he convicts. The Holy Spirit lives in us and is upon us, he enables us. This also tells us we can hear him. If we can hear him then we have no need to seek all these voices, these LYING tongues. YOU CAN HEAR FROM GOD DIRECTLY!

I was very humbled by this. I was very grateful for this. But I was also very afraid and doubtful. Not doubtful in God but myself. After hearing this, little by little I stopped doing the listening to others. Little by little I stopped studying worldly, Christian teachings.  I became paralyzed in sorts. I didn’t know what to think. I didn’t know what was correct and what was not. I was so confused and had no one to lean on for support to get back. To help me clear my thinking. I knew something was wrong but wasn’t sure what it was or how to get back on track.

Recently I have gained a dear brother in Christ. The last four or five months he has really helped me. He has prayed for me and my family. He allowed me to voice my questions and concerns with no feel of judgment and he also allowed me to find my way with guidance. I believe it was a divine appointment to help guide me back.

I had not realized this was a lesson or correction until early this morning…It all hit me like a ton of blocks. A friend of mine might call it a down load : ).

I have now become full in my head, but am lacking in my heart. The heart is where God operates.

Revelations 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him and he with me.

We are to commune with him daily, hourly, secondly. Especially in these deceptive and dark times! Pray without seizing, praise with a humble heart. Seeking HIM in all matters and in all things. I am not to be taught by the world but by his word and spirit alone.

I am not saying that we are not to be aware of what is going on in the world. I am not saying that we are not to study. I am simply saying that we must be in constant communion with God first. Him being our first priority, our first and last go too.

As I was speaking to God yesterday, as I was thanking him and asking for forgiveness. He told me that I am to share this, because ‘it’s not only to teach you, but to open the eyes of others.” He told me that “there is more to share”….So this is the “more” he wants me to share.

I had not only learned to keep constant communion with God. I have also learned that there are many false prophets, teachers, and healers. They are being led by a demonic spirit. In my next post I will be exposing some of these lying tongues that the Holy Spirit warned me about. I will back it up with scripture, links, and a dream.

The reason why I am going to expose the false teaching, is first, because God told me too. Second because these false teachings and prophetic voices were a stumbling block for me and has been for millions of other people. I wonder if this could be the great delusion or falling away spoken about in the bible. Even the Elect might be deceived….

For those of you who would like to know Gods truth, I encourage you to prepare for the next post. Read 2 Thessalonians 2:1-12 and Mathew 24:4-28. Ask God to speak his truth to your heart and meditate on these scriptures.

word for pastors and leaders

September 3rd 2015


In my dream, it was in October and at night.

We (me and my niece, she is 19 years old) were looking for costumes for Halloween that was to be that night. My niece showed me a pink dress, she was going to be a princess.

Then I was outside next to my old elementary school. I noticed everyone was looking up, so I looked up and seen something similar to the below picture.




In my dream it spanned the whole sky and it was much brighter and vibrant in my dream. In my dream I remember thinking wow that’s beautiful and weird. But didn’t pay much more attention to it than that. I walked to a parking garage; on a car I noticed a note that I had written and stuck to a car. The note was a reminder for me to do something by a certain time, but I can’t remember the time or what I was supposed to do.

Then I flew or floated over to a farm my husband was with me. We were looking down on a cow and her calves. They were in a pin and there was one brown adult female cow laying down and about 6 or 7 calf’s (all different ages and breeds) feeding or waiting to feed from the adult female cow. I said to my husband that is so cute. Look at all those calves.

Then I was walking by myself in the woods and I seen the same reminder note I had written. I then woke up.



We are going to go through great tribulation. Yes even the Church, even Gods children. Is my Church ready what is about to come?

The female cow represents the pastors the leaders of the churches. The calves are the members of the church. The Pastors/leaders have NOT fed their flock, they have not fed my children.

They are not speaking my truth, my word. They have led them astray.

They have love of money

They have love of themselves

They have love of power

They have love of fame

They worry about who will be offended by speaking my truth. Speak my truth. Speak my truth.

Will you feed my flock and teach them my truth? Will you teach them what times we are in and what is coming? Will you teach them how to combat the evil on the earth and in the air? Will you teach them to have an intimate relationship with me, to seek me? Teach them, teach them my truth. We are in serious times, we have no more time for laziness, idleness’, idle talk, Speak my truth speak my word.

The girl with the princess dress are members of church who are pretending or who do not know better because they have no one surrounding them teaching them Gods truth.

Are the leaders holding the flock accountable? Are they guiding them into my truth? Where are the leaders, where are my appointed leaders? Why are they not seeing the times we are in, where is the urgency, where is the hunger for me, why are they not seeking me out, where is my word of truth?


Teaching Children

I have had the honor over the last year to teach Sunday school at my church.  I love children, they say the funniest things, they are eager to please, and they are eager to learn.  At least the little ones I teach.

About a month ago I resigned from teaching Sunday school for at least a little while.  This last Sunday was my last time to be the Sunday school teacher and I had forgot the book that we use to teach the children.  I told pastors wife I had forgot it and would figure it out.  I started to pray and asked God what he wanted me to do for Sunday school.  In a small voice I heard the words Holy Spirit.  So I asked God, what about the Holy Spirit would you like me to teach.  I heard the words Holy Spirit functions….

As I started to prepare for the Sunday school class, I couldn’t help but to think isn’t this a little too deep for 1-5 graders????  I told God I would do it but to guide everything that was written and taught.

As I started Sunday School, the children just didn’t understand what I was saying.  I was actually quite surprised at how very little they knew of the Holy Spirit.  I stopped what I was teaching, and prayed with the little ones.  I started to list the functions of the Holy Spirit on the white board.  I Asked a lot of questions.  And read the verses out of the Bible that pertained to the Holy Spirit (good thing I had the verses all listed).

By the end of the class, these children understood what I was teaching.  They were actually very excited!  Which again surprised me.  Normally when the little ones know the Service is out they run out the door.  This time they all stayed seated, and wouldn’t get up from their seat, even when the parents were waiting at the door.  They were hungry to hear more.

Teaching the children about the stories in the bible is good, but they need to know more.  They need to be taught what you and I know.  As I told the children in class, “yes you are children, but God gives special gifts to all his people.  If you have asked God into your heart and you live your life as the bible instructs, you have the gift(s), you can use the gift(s) that God has given you.”  I told them that if they don’t know what their Gift is that all they have to do is pray that God reveal it to them and in his timing he will show them.  God can use children and does use children.

Its time we all teach the children the meat of God.  They do understand, as I have just recently learned.  Not only do they understand but they get on fire to hear more.

I want to leave you with a response from one of the little ones during Sunday school.  I asked the question to all of them, “if God gave you the option of what gift you received from him what would it be?”  One said, “I would want all the gifts.”  I asked why she would want all of them.  She said, “so more people would love God.”

Isn’t this so true?  God gives us gifts for the church, but also for unbelievers.  For the church it builds faith.  For the unbelievers it causes many to believe…

The Blind Girl

There was a girl blind at birth.  She had never seen…Her family would describe what the sky looked like in detail to her.  She would go to school and describe to her other blind friends all the details of the sky, AS IF she had seen it.

One day God healed her of her blindness.  She was able to see what the sky REALLY looked like.  She saw the different colors, the different layers, the vastness, the beauty, how the sky melted into itself.

This is what God wants us to have with him.  A first hand relationship with him, a deep relationship with him.  He does not want us to see him through others eyes, he does not want us to only rely on what others teach us but to be lead by the spirit, by God.