I am very grieved in my spirit over people who claim to be “Christians”.  My heart feels sad and I am ashamed of people who say they are Christians but look down on people who are not.  Who look at people with haughty and judgmental eyes.

So many times, I look through these posts under the tags that are related to God.  I come across posts from people who apparently are not Christian, or people who seem to be reaching out, and there is not one comment to the person who posted.  NONE.  Not one comment of encouragement, nothing….

Do you think you are a true Christian because you post about God.  Do you think you are a true Christian because you go to church, or read the bible.  Do you think you are a true Christian because you make better choices than your neighbor?  Let me tell you something “Christian”  God reads your heart, God reads your motives, God knows when you look at someone with haughty eyes, God will judge even “Christians”.

I am ashamed, I am ashamed to be called a Christian.  Too many people out there call themselves Christians but do not represent the true God, my God, the creator of heaven and earth, the creator of all life.  Where is your grace? where is your light? where is your love?

Christians are called to love!  Christians are called to bring people to God!  Are you bringing people to God with your haughty looks?    Are you bringing people to God by ignoring a call for help or encouragement!  Are you bringing people to God with your religious spirit?  God will judge you for every person you turned away from him.  Where is your love, Where is your grace?  Where are the true Christians?!


Awaken my slumbering church

God always gives me bits at a time, a little at a time. He brings me on a journey. God has asked me to do many things in my life that has been very hard. Each time a little piece of me, a little piece of my flesh is taken and replaced with a deeper realization, a deeper trust, a deeper relationship, a deeper love for our Lord God. Sometimes, I don’t want to do it. Sometimes it is hard to bear. Not because Gods requests are hard, but many times it’s because it’s hard for me to lay myself down. To lay my self’s will down. Many of you know the burden I am talking about. It isn’t the same kind of burdens from the world. The burdens we faced before knowing God.

In the world we are alone, lost with very little comfort if any. With God there is hope, there is love and peace. When I call on his name he answers. I am never left alone. Where ever God is calling you, you must go. No matter the burden, no matter the flesh that must be laid down.

I am going to take you on a journey that God has recently taken me on.

On 8/1/15 I kept thinking of a shofar being blown. As the day progressed I had a sense that I should ask Pastor if he could blow a Shofar in the next Sunday service. By the end of the day I did not call Pastor I was not obedient. The next Sunday I was praying and again the Shofar was brought to my mind. When I got to church again I got a sense to speak with Pastor about blowing the Shofar. God was telling me that there would be a releasing when it was blown. A releasing of what I did not know. I was not obedient to what God was telling me to do. I thought I was being silly, I thought it was my own thinking. I literally had no understanding of what a Shofar was, what it represented, what it was used for. I didn’t even know the name of it at this time.

On 8/11/15 I had a dream. I was at work with part of my family. My brother, sister, dad and all our children were there. We were sitting around this containment area that was filled with water talking and laughing. When my ex-husband walked up and my father asked him, why are you preventing my daughter from getting 1.4 million dollars (this part of the dream I do not know the meaning of. I want to give you a complete description of this dream I was given). Just as my father completed his question all the children ran up to me and said, Ryan is drowning in the water! I looked over and seen him lifeless. I ran over and pulled him out of the bottom of the water. I laid him down and prayed, Lord God do not let him die. As I was leaning down to resuscitate his lifeless body, he woke with a freight. He was crying and said, sorry for being bad, please forgive me. I then woke up.

On 8/24/15 my son woke me many times. He was wrestles. The second time he woke me I went back to bed. As soon as I snuggled up I heard a sound, a melody. I thought it sounded like a trumpet or a ram’s horn. The melody was the same for about 5 minutes, it was an audible sound. At first I was fearful because I wasn’t sure what was happening. I said, Lord? Is this from you? Peace came over me. I started counting the different pitches. I started to study this melody. I finally fell back to sleep. On my way to work I remembered what happened that night. I called Pastors wife because I needed direction, I needed some kind of understanding. As soon as I got off the phone, I looked on the internet to see if I could find a simi_Shofar_Blow[1]lar sound to what I had heard. I googled trumpet sounds and listened. It was very similar but didn’t sound exactly the same. I googled rams horn sounds and clicked on the first thing that popped up. It was the exact same melody and sound I had heard the night before. It was a Shofar! I truly couldn’t believe my ears. I had never heard this melody before. As I had mentioned above I had never known the name of a Shofar and what the significance of one was. After doing a little bit of studying, I found there are four prominent blasts. Typically all four blasts are played together. But the night before there were only 3 of these blasts. The first one I heard was called Tekiah. This blast is a call to awaken. The second one I heard was called Shvarim. This means broken, weeping, repenting. The third one I heard is called Takiah Hagodolah. This represents the great blast or the last blast.

This is the meaning:

God is calling his church to awaken. God said, “Awaken my slumbering church. The time is at your door. Repent, Repent, Repent, my slumbering church.” God is calling us to fall to our knees in repentance with great groaning and great weeping. It is time to set the wrong right. It is time to set yourselves in order, your house in order. This is the last warning to the church. God said, “Arise, wake up, repent.”

The boy that was dead in the water represents the church. We once were on fire for God but over time we have become dead we have not stuck to his statutes we have stopped repenting. God says, “Repent and I will resuscitate you. I will give you my fire from your youth. I will pour out my power upon you, my church. You will do great things for my glory.” Awaken my slumbering church, repent, the time is at your door.”

After I had received this word and revelation, I have been troubled. I have been troubled because God is right. th0MJH201T

Since then I have cried. I have repented. I continue to repent, I repent for the church, I repent for my disobedience, I repent for not ALWAYS putting God in his rightful place. I repent for all the sins of my family that have been passed to each generation. I repent for the sins of our Government our state. I don’t want to be left out of Gods plans, I truly don’t want to be disobedient, I want my Abba to be proud of me. I am troubled because as God says we must repent to receive this great outpouring. To receive his mercy and his grace. God is looking for a pure church. God can see the outwardly sins but he can also see our hearts, he can see our thoughts, he can see our motives. This is something that we cannot escape. GOD truly sees all he truly knows all.  This is why I am troubled, many may read this or have been told something similar to this, but disregards Gods words for this hour.  I almost did that…not just once but several times.  I don’t want anyone of his children to miss this last opportunity to repent.  Even though our God is a loving god he is also a holy God, he is righteous.  He can not have a dirty church, a sinful church.  It says in his word he will judge his church first.  Lets not forget that God reads the heart.  He knows when you ask for forgiveness and its not sincere…

With Gods blessing,



I have been thinking about love.  How the world loves, how we love, how God loves, how we love our family our friends.  Its easy to look at someone else and see how they do not love the way we think they should.  To point out either in our hearts or out loud to someone how they fail in that area.  But have we ever stopped and truly examined ourselves?  I am quick to anger when someone judges me or my family, to hold a grudge.  But is this love?  The bible tells me that this is not love.  Jesus showed us that this is not love.  This does not mean that the person that judges isn’t wrong, but we need to be more focused on ourselves.  After all we cant change the other person, only God can do that.  So I choose to pray instead of holding a grudge.  God will do the healing of the heart, God will do the prompting.  That is if we allow it.

I like the story in the bible about the adulterer that was going to be stoned.  Jesus stepped in and said to everyone, if you have no sin in your lives then throw the first stone.  Of course no one threw a stone.  We all fail we are all full of wrong.  How am I to judge someone else if I am full of wrong?  I think it fitting to let God do the judging, after all he is perfect.  He loves correctly.

Since birth others have taught me to love.  They told me how much they loved me but would call me names, abandon me, hit me, judge me, show no compassion or mercy and so forth.  Since this is my experience with love, this is how I loved.  But God tells us this is not love.  He tells us that love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs, love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth, love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always preserves.  Love never fails.  This is not the love I gave or experienced, so I was wrong.  I have a choice to fix it.  I have to tell myself, just because I am going to fix something about myself, I cant expect everyone else to fix themselves.  I am simply doing it because God asks it of me.

In order to understand what God teaches on love, I had to look at a few scriptures.  I had to look at my experience of Gods love for me.  The bible tells us that Jesus is the Shepard and we are the flock.  That the Shepard will never leave us, he will never abandon us, and no matter how wrong we are his is still there loving us and reaching out to us.  God shows his love by guiding us, caring for us.  He transforms, renews, strengthens.  he fills with hope, joy and peace.  He comforts, he forgives and he gives salvation.  He is gentle and definitely patient.  God honors, he protects and he will answer when I call on him.  God corrects.  This is what love is.  This is how I should be striving to love.  Not the way I was taught, not the way someone else loves me and definitely not the way the world loves.  This includes loving myself correctly too.  During this journey I have ask myself, Self, how can I love like God?  I can not transform or renew someone.  This can be done in many ways.  Not the same way as God can but you or I can do it by simply using a kind word, uplifting someone, encouraging someone, or a kind gesture.  There have been many times in my life where my hope in people was gone.  Then someone would come along and do something extraordinary for either myself or someone else.  This transforms my thoughts.  It would restore or renew my hope in people.  Yes, I know that it is not exactly the same as God does it but its still in line with the way that God calls us to love.

The greatest commandment is to love God with all your heart, mind and soul.  The second Greatest is to love your neighbor as you love yourself.  I asked myself why Gods greatest commandments are about love.  I believe its because love breaks down walls, it softens hearts, love is contagious.  We are called to love.  We MUST love ALL.  Gods grace found me and you as we were.  Gods grace meets us where we are.